Sunday, May 13, 2012

Mother's Day

Mother's Day is always a hard day for me to describe.  On the outside, it seems like a day that we all honor our Mother's for the hard work they have put into our lives.  And it is hard work, and it deserves to be honored (especially more than one day a year).  I owe a heck of a lot to my mom, especially this last year as I really don't know where we would have been without all her work to help me keep Sabrina baking! She went so far above and beyond and there is no way for me to repay her for how hard she had to work to keep my household and her own household flowing for almost 20 weeks!  Because of her sacrifice, I was able to have a healthy baby girl and there is no way that I can thank her enough for that.

3 years ago was by far the hardest Mother's Day I have ever had.  I wanted nothing more than to be a mother, but the path wasn't quite so straight forward for our family and while we didn't have to fight as hard as some have to fight to become parents, it was still a very difficult time.  Today, I still think of all of the woman who today is not an easy day for.  I wish that every woman who has longed and waited for so long to be a mother, could conceive easily.  I wish that all the families waiting to be matched with their children, would get that magical call today.  I wish that all of the millions upon millions of children, would be blessed with amazing mother's today.  It is so easy to take your children for granted and I never want to be a mother who does that.  I love them so much and want them to always know how badly I desired each one of them!

3 Years ago, I would have never imagined how blessed my life would be today.  I am the mother to 3 beautiful children - wow!  I constantly thank God for the blessings he has given me.  I couldn't be any happier to have 2 sons and a daughter!  Things can be hard to balance, but this is exactly the life I wanted for myself!  God has blessed me with the desire's of my heart!  

Today I also reflect on the woman who is responsible for the gift of one of my children.  I am sure that she has no idea that today is a day we honor Mother's here in the US, but she has been on my mind today.  I wish she could see her beautiful baby boy today.  I wish she could understand how much of a blessing he is to me and how much I love him.  There is so much I want to say to her on this Mother's Day.  She has not been forgotten.

So today, I am torn.  Thankful for my own mother!  Saddened for all the woman who are still longing to become a mother.  Heartbroken for a woman half  a world away who gave me the most incredible gift.  And utterly blessed beyond measure to be a mother myself!


David and Larisa said...

I understand perfectly, Amy, and can I just say...What a beautiful picture of you with your little sweethearts!