This is my first Mother's Day as a mother to 6. Wow, I have 6 little ones who call me Mom, what an honor. I know I take this privilege for granted at times but I am truly so thankful and so blessed to be a Mom. It is the most ordinary, extraordinary thing title I will carry in this life!
Malachi, the first time I laid eyes on you, my heart was beating a thousand beats per minute. I had been picturing this moment for months upon months. We flew half a world away, waited what felt like forever for the van to arrive to go and get you. I will never forget when they called us to go into the baby house, walked up those stairs and saw you for the very first time! You were facing away from me and all I could see what this chunky little boy with a head full of hair sticking straight up, sitting in a bumbo. I didn't even think, instantly I just knew I needed you in my arms! You didn't cry, you just stared and took us in! It felt like time stood still! You were a dream come true and finally in my arms! I couldn't wait to get to know you!
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Eli, the night you were born was something! The second I saw you I was scared for you. I will never forget the look in your Dad's eyes when I told him my water just broke. The scared drive to the hospital because I really had to do this! The fairly smooth labor, it honestly felt too easy for a first labor! Seeing you born, you were so tiny and you were fighting to breathe. It was the scariest moment of my life and I couldn't believe you had to leave me in an ambulance. I cried and cried in that empty hospital room after you left. I will never forget walking into the NICU the next day and seeing the cords and wires keeping you alive. I wasn't prepared but we both stayed strong and you were finally put in my arms, right where you belonged! It was exactly what we both needed! I never wanted to put you down!
My Sabrina Fair, the day I held you was pure bliss! The perfect, redeeming moment I needed! Your labor was a dream come true, quick and fairly easy. Before I even knew it, you were in my arms and the world stood still again. You were the perfect little dream girl and I snuggled you for so long and just soaked in the time with you. There was no rush, no hustle and bustle, the room emptied and it was just you and I (and Daddy). I couldn't even believe I had a daughter! You were amazing and easy and precious and just everything we needed!
Our precious LB, you were another whirlwind. I was a ball of nerves as we traveled to be there for your arrival. The wait for word on your induction. The call that we were to meet your birth mom at the hospital. We learned so much in that short time with her. Going to lunch and giving her some time to rest. Arriving back to find we had just missed your arrival (you arrived much faster than they anticipated). I will never forget standing next to your birth mom as she introduced you to us! You weren't even that old, but that sacred moment where she handed you to me - wow! We went into a separate room and while the time was stressful your Dad and I soaked you in. You were so tiny and cute and just everything - our second daughter!
Then our Ayla! You my dear, we waited years for you to join the family and you took your sweet time arriving on the scene. I had never experienced a labor like yours. It was a long day in the hospital and quite painful as we approached pushing time, but you finally decided to join us. I will never forget coming face to face with you - hearing we had another daughter and seeing your sweet face for the first time! Another baby I got to soak in the moment with for as long as they'd let us. You gave us an earful about joining the party but I just marveled at your perfect little cheeks and how alert you were! You seemed perfect in every way!
And then our Baby Leeland. You just continue to surprise us in every way. Your arrival was full of twists and turns. I will never forget waking up to labor pains, a very painful drive to a different hospital than we were planning, with different doctors and contraction after contraction. You were in a hurry and not waiting for anything. It was the most intense thing I have ever experienced and I was just full of relief as I reached for you and brought you to into my arms. I was the first one to notice we had another precious boy after 10 years! I am so glad we had that hour of snuggles because things went downhill from there in a blur of hard days! I couldn't even really process that you would also be leaving me in an ambulance. There is still a mix of emotions surrounding your birth but I am just so thankful you are okay and the perfect little addition!
What a blessed Mama I am to have these sweet babies. The journey's were all so different but the feelings of meeting each of them was the same! They were mine and so loved. I owe Mother's Day to them, they made my dreams come true by just existing!
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